Wow great post. That is exactly what I was looking for.

I absolutely agree with the "mindfulness". I have been realizing more and more that I am losing track of the present, little things I forget here and there, due to spending a huge amount of energy and time on negative thought patterns. And I have had a lot of thoughts similar to what you talked about. I realize that the only way my thoughts really screw with me is by me "playing along with them" and giving them energy to grow into worse and worse things. I have known that I must starve them. Take away the power that I give them. I know that I am ultimately the one in power and I give these thoughts the power to screw with me. I have recently decided to make a listening tape of things that I want to get done or I enjoy doing so that I can play it and remind myself through the day of the things I should be spending my energy on.

And by the way for everybody, I have been seeing a therapist for 10 months now as well as a psychologist for equally as long and have been on: Zoloft, Paxil, Abilify, Lamictal, Remeron, Klonopin, Ativan, and a Beta Blocker 9in no particular order). So I have been getting professional help and I think therapy has proven to be more useful than any meds. It's just good to hear from someone who "has been there" as opposed to listening to people who might not have the real world experience.

Thank you all for posting. :) :)
Joel